Carolyn: I’m thirty years old and I’m originally from Jupiter, Florida which is in Palm Beach County. I had a normal life growing up. I had everything I wanted. All of my friends were super wealthy. In South Florida it’s like, everyone gets new cars and boob jobs for their sixteenth birthday.
It started out as just having fun and partying. I went to college. I have a bachelors degree. I had a normal life but it was almost like a double life.
BW: How did you get started using opiates?
Carolyn: Being from South Florida, the pill mills in 2004 — 2005 really blew up. In Palm Beach, Broward and Miami-Dade became the epicenter of roxys, oxycodone, whatever. Roxys were such a normal thing that people were being prescribed hundreds every month. The going rate for a 30mg Oxycodone was like under $10 where as now on the streets they are are $30 which is $1 per milligram.
I started out snorting them. At first they would make me sick. That feeling of wanting them… you just keep doing them anyway. So, it started out socially and normal. Everyone having them. Then I moved on from the Roxys to Dilantin. I started shooting it.
The pill mills got shut down by the DEA and heroin became the thing, because it’s cheaper and it’s stronger and now that’s what’s down there in place of all those pill mills. My detox off heroin is so much worse than trying to detox off pills, that Methadone was my only option. Now, being in Asheville, Methadone clinics are huge. There’s like ten of them in this little area.
I’m at a point where I know I have to be medicated. I know if I’m not on it I’m gonna be on something else.
BW: You can’t see a future where you won’t be medicated?
Carolyn: I want to… I don’t know. I told my boyfriend that I think I’m gonna be medicated forever. It’s nice to think that I could get through a day with just me… when I weigh the pros and cons, I’m either out on the street shooting dope or I’m going to a clinic every single morning taking a prescribed dose to where I can function, hold down a job, and get my life together.
I use because I don’t want to be sick. Now I’m on Methadone, so right now I’m not sick but I want to go get high and… I probably will.