Mecca: My dad was an addict. He spent 10 years of my life in prison. I used to go see him and stuff. We never really had a relationship. I always wanted one but we never really had a solid father daughter relationship. That’s why I was always looking for a sugar daddy, someone to take care of me and stuff. So, I started dancing when I was 17. I’d hop the train and go to Jersey and dance. 

I ended up moving to Atlanta to go to college. I didn’t finish cause I found the club life so fascinating. It was awesome. I was 18 or 19, getting into all the best clubs in Atlanta. My boyfriend was a headhunter by day but by night, he sold drugs.

It came out that he was an intravenous drug user. I started doing it because I wanted to be close to him. I couldn’t let go of our relationship cause I guess I was that insecure. You know, I thought that nobody would ever love me. 

Our addiction got so bad that we started fighting. Physical and mental abuse. He committed suicide when I was 22. 

BW: Do you know why he killed himself?

Mecca: He had a lot of emotional turmoil within himself. He always felt like he was in some sort of prison. That’s kind of how drugs are, a prison of the mind. No matter what, you’re gonna do it because you’re addicted. 

I was on and off drugs for a long time then it got so bad that they sent me to prison. I did two years and was a model prisoner. I finished this program and won awards and stuff.

I got out and was doing good and then my mom got cancer. I became overwhelmed so I started using drugs again. While I was using, she passed away. *tears* My grandma died first and then my mom in the same year. I was all alone down here and I started using drugs real bad. 

I got my settlement (see note below) from the case and I went to rehab. After rehab, I got out, got an apartment. I was a student again. Got all these awards and honestly, it was too much for me…

It started again.

Note: Mecca did two years in prison. It was discovered, after she finished her sentence, that she was only supposed to be on probation. Because of that, she received a settlement. Read the story of her false imprisonment. 

Part of these collections: Opiate Addiction