Meshell: I’ve been working with a psychiatrist. I can’t remember anything before I was thirteen. We just can’t get it to come up. We’re thinking something traumatic happened and my brain blocked it. She said, “what if you find out what it is and you don’t want to remember it?” So, I figured I would leave well enough alone.
BW: Did they diagnose you with something?
Meshell: Yeah, manic depression and PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder.
BW: Do they know what the PTSD is from?
Meshell: Yeah, I got attacked in 2006. I was at the underground in Atlanta and went through the garage to get out the other side. Three guys jumped me in the garage. They took me to a house for three days. They did everything you could ever even imagine to a woman, everywhere.
I don’t remember getting out but the neighbor told the detective that she called because I was in the yard crying and saying that I had just crawled out the bathroom window. I don’t remember it. They said my body was in such shock from all the pain and trauma that my body had basically just shut down.
BW: How do you think it impacts you now?
Meshell: I have a lot of nightmares from it. And then I seen a guy the other day that looked a lot like the guy who picked me up and I literally flipped because it was like I had a flashback right there.