Nick: I’m one of them people that when I do drugs I feel normal. It’s sad man. I wish there was a way we could be happy without this [drugs].
BW: Do you have a habit? Do you get sick [if you don’t use heroin]?
Nick: Yeah. I don’t feel good right now. That’s why I’m in such a hurry. Watch, you gonna see. After I do this I’m gonna be all relaxed. I don’t use no needles. [Takes a big hit, holds it deep and exhales] Man… that shit’s the bomb dude. Now all of a sudden I’m ready to work.
Nick: Growing up we had to isolate ourselves. We had to deal with things on our own. My mom would run off for a week or so and get fucked up on meth and he’d [stepdad] try to make us choose sides and shit.
BW: Has your mom always had a habit?
Nick: Yeah, but for a long time I didn’t even know until my stepdad said something. I was twelve years old and he was like, “You know why your mom’s gone with her friend a week now, right?” He’s like, “It’s that meth. Check this out. Look what I found in her clothes.” I never knew nothing [before then]. It’s just a lot of pressure on a kid to tell your kid, “Hey kid, your mom’s doing dope.”
Me being alone right now, you’re probably wondering, where’s my friends. Like I said, we isolate. When my mom runs off for weeks she’s isolating herself from the house unit. That’s basically what I’m doing now. I don’t know man. It’s difficult to form relationships with people.