I just recently came clean to my family about being addicted to pain medication. I have a new therapist and am supposed to start group therapy next week. Truth is, I am not sure I am ready for the help. I came clean because for a moment, I thought I was ready to start my journey to getting sober. I am a very high functioning addict and have a 7.5 month old daughter to take care of. As badly as I should take this as an 'out' because I have a strong support system, I have no idea what to do now because not wanting to get clean has become my new secret.